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In the Name of Allah, most Compassionate,
most Merciful
Becoming Muslim
Amal
http://www.usc.edu/dept/MSA/newmuslims/amal.html
As a young girl born in the Northwest
of the USA, my dream was to become a nun. Growing up Roman Catholic, I
saw the nuns have a spirtual presence that attracted me until I reached
the age of 14. It was then I started having misgivings about Catholic doctrine,
so I gravitated towards the Protestant faiths. The trinity was a lingering
concern for me. I often just tried "to have faith" but my own logic overruled
this, so many considered me "not serious enough to be spiritual". At the
age of 20 I began talking religion to a cab driver, and heard the term
Islam for the first time from a real person. The nightly news talked about
Islam and the Muslims - sure, they were called terrorists. I presented
this to my driver, who Alhamdulillah laughed softly and suggested I read
Al-Quran. Actually, I read a few books on Islam first, then the Quran.
This is when I knew I could have both my faith and logic, and Alhamdulillah
I found I wasn't crazy after all. It took another two years before I took
Shahada, and another two before hijab.
Alhamdullah now at 29, I have my faith,
health, oh, and a terrific husband as well (this is one of my first prayers
or duas answered!). My story is not unusual, quite boring if you are not
me I suppose, yet I never tire of telling others my story. I could tell
of my family, that would be unusual. They have never been happier with
me, although my sister still does not like my hijab, all members are in
agreement, I am happier, more centered, and above all I have peace where
before was chaos and confusion. It didn't happen over night, I have worked
and am still working at this, you don't "convert" and that is it, everyday
comes the struggle to learn, only now I welcome struggle. Inshallah, God
Willing, my story has inspired someone, at any rate thank you for reading
my story. May Allah Guide those who Search.
Jul. 29th, 1999
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